Struggles with Smoking

One thing with being single I find is that it's not all that easy because you can do whatever you want and if you choose so, there is no accountability.  This is the path I'm on, and I find there are too many dark corners in my life where I don't live life as I should.  One area is Smoking and spending too much money eating out and on smoking.

As of yesterday I have no more Ciggarretts and no more money till tomorrow to buy new ciggarretts.  So that left me yesterday evening and today without being able to smoke.  With as much as I smoke, it's tough,  but I'm thinking that I should try to not buy anymore ciggarretts even once I have money again.  I don't know if it is possible.  It's going to be hard for sure.  But smoking costs me $110.00 a month and that's just too expensive.

I'm just thinking if I could do without smoking how wonderful that would be.  So that's what I'm going to try.  If I succeed I don't know.  I want to give it my best but not promise something I can't end up keeping.

I think quiting cold turkey in my case is the only way to go.  Because either I smoke or I don't there is no in between.

My City, Kitchener

I thought I'll also show you some pictures of the city I live in.

First is my apartment from the outside:

This is the Downtown Bus Terminal I pass through daily or every other day:

Now the following suitecase you can't lift.  It's made out of cement.  It's Art.

The following is what I think the Bell tower in Victoria Park.  Whether there is actually a bell in it or not, I don't know.

The following are some other pictures from Victoria Park in Kitchener.



Hamilton & Visit at the Mission

On Tuesday I had my psychiatrist appointment in Hamilton.  So I got to ride the big Coach Canada bus ride by my work, right on to Hamilton.  I always enjoy going to Hamilton since I lived there for 2 1/2 years.  It brings back memories (the good ones).  I was able to tell the psychiatrist that everything has been going uphill since the last month and the medication stay the same.  I only go to Hamilton every 2 to 3 months.

Today (Wednesday) I went for my work day to the Liebenzel Misson Center to Jeff and Ursi's to work there most of the day.  Katie and Maya, but especially Katie had lots of fun climbing and standing on Uncle Mark and push him over while I was there.  I guess I'm the only Uncle in the area he gets to do that with and give Mom a break while she's at it!  I'm glad to see when I can be a long enough distraction for Ursi to get some computer work done.  I hope it helps.

I'll have to post some more pictures on the weekend, since with dial up it actually takes 10 minutes to upload one piture!  I'm willing to endure patiently though and do other things in the mean time.

My Living Space

Let me take you on a tour of where I live

This is my Control/work Center:

This is my Entertainment Centre:

This is my Sleep Center:

This is my Kitchen.
I can't really call it my Cooking Centre because I don't cook much.
Mostly when my Social Worker is here or when I heat up things do I cook.

To end the tour with, the following is the door through which I come and go every day.

First Blog, Here I am!

Here I am! 
I'm not sure how this new blogging will be like and how often I'll get around to it but I'm all excited about it!
It's late Saturday night almost early Sunday morning.  I had a day of Sleeping a lot and also doing my finances and Laundry.  Lately with being very busy during the week, I aways enjoy coming home Friday night and just crash, and have my Friday night of watching TV Shows till 1 am in the morning because Saturday morning I can sleep in all morning.  I hope I  don't make you married couples to jeleous but I really enjoy being single and do what ever I want when I have a whole weekend to kill.